First blog post

HELLO WORLD!

I have finally decided to create my blog to write about anything I desire, especially after seeing what is going on in the world. You may be confused as to what I mean about this.

After being scared to be judged my whole life for who I am, I decided to change that recently. When I was younger, I was bullied about my appearance; it hit my confidence 100%. It led me to stay in an abusive relationship (don’t worry, I left it back in 2015) because I felt nobody else would like me and only that person would “love me”.

I became a quiet person because of the bullying and the toxic relationship. I felt my opinions and ideas were invalid since I thought I was unintelligent, ugly and fat. Yes, back then, I was worried a lot about my body, when now I admit I am bigger and would like to look like I did before.

Now, even if I ever get comments that I should not do something or about the way I look, the only opinion I will consider is mine since it is my life, and it’s short.

In 2017, my mental health hit low, but around August, I got help, and now I am happier.

If you want to know more information on how I improved my mental health after those incidents, I would be happy to do another post talking about it.

However, after a break-up in 2019, it affected me emotionally, making me not care about myself physically until the end of 2021. Yes, the pandemic also contributed to my increased weight. I have now decided that I want to lose it all for my health and appearance.

Let me clarify one thing. My body structure is for a small person, and when I increase weight, it all goes to my belly rather than my legs or arms. I may not look THAT big, but my body does feel those extra kilos.

In 2022, I want to change along with expressing myself more on this virtual platform, including posting more on all my other social media.

That is enough for this very long and personal post, so the next post I do will hopefully be more uplifting.

Thank you for reading. 💕